abah sayang!!

i feel like blogging today.. feel like theres so many things to say.. but i dont know what.. hehehe.. well basically like always i'm busy with my studies.. got 1 more paper to go (midterm for god sake!) still got finals!!! got lotsa assignments.. critique essay which due next week & i havent done anything yet! demmit!!! why am i sooOoo lazy???

yesterday.. i found out from naz ( my bro) that he'll be furthering his study in Lim Kok Wing!!! yesh yesh yesh!!!! the SooOOoo expensive LIM KOK WING!!! can u imagine it???? my bro in LKW?? hehhee... well he like arhi so my dad thought that LKW was the only BEST place for him to go.. actually my dad dont really into IPTA.. & dont ask me why.. i just dont know the answer..

i'm happy for him (naz) because he will be studying again and not lepaking at home doing nothing.. but what i'm scared about was that it is SOoOOOO expensive!!! && who knows me... they know that my family is not rich!! i'm scared that my dad cannot handle IF we face financial problem in the future! =( i just can help thinking bout it u know.. my sis and i are in MMU which is already expensive! but then my bro in the MOST! expensive U in m'sia ( i think!)

&& i know that my dad want the BESTEST! for all of us... but i think he shouldn't have to sacrifice himself though.. he works hard enough i know.. he works almost everydays in a week.. even saturdays n sundays!! & even on school holidays! he have not much rest! & he's sick! ... oh gosh!! i'm crying writing this.!!seriously!! i love my dad sOOOo much! & he's the best dad in the whole entire world!!
i wish i could say this to him... oh god! i'll praying all day long asking god for the happiness n good health for my dad.. i hope we will never ever make him down! i dont wanna upset him.. he done more than enough for the good sake of our family!..

i wish and i hope n i WANT! to be the girl that my dad have always wanted me to be! & that would be ACCOUNTANT!! i dont wanna burden him more in the future.. i wanna make him happy.. i dont wanna make him sad anymore.. & thats my promise! to myself!! and u my blog the witness of this..

abah!
i know u wouldnt read this..
but if i got a chance to say this in front of u i would..
abah!
sue sayang abah sgt sgt!!
sue tak nak kecewakn abah in the future..
thank you soOoo much for everythings..
&& i hope i can repay everythings that u have done..

;)) xoxo~ sue
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