bloody stress!!

other things that make me stress right now!!
bb!!
still sleeping at this kind of hour!
its already 4.33pm!!
haiihh!!!
geramm nyee!!

if xkejut marah..
n if dh kejut.. xreti2 nk bgn!!

so many times i called him! i don't know whats wrong.. i mean.. sometimes i called him i cant hear his voice.. and i cant even hear the *tiit tiit* sounds.. why?? is it because something wrong with my phone or maxis got problem???
i think maxis got problem! every time Ada je problem with maxis.! other problem is... when i called bb, theres other person answered it! sometimes nyonya mana x... and today.. a Malay girl..
*curious*
why?? why???
urghhh!!
stress again!!!

not in the mood!

stress!

gIleERrrrrrrr STressssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exams make me GOoo Crazzyy!!

FCUK!!

hate it !!!!

hate it!!!!!!!!!

hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

urghhh!!!

mau bunuh diri bolee??

hakhakhak...

alone :(

:((
in a couple of hours i'll be alone! ALL ALONE!! kak bai nak balik kejap lg.. shax's in KL.. i have no one else here in malacca... well..except for bb.. but... what am i gonna do tonight?? where am i gonna sleeep?? alone in my room?? alone at home??? urghh!! dont think soo.. tatoottt laa!!

shax... bile kamu mau balik sini yer?? rindu bangat sama kamu!!!.. ;p

i'm still thinkin of what to do tonight!.. perhaps i will ask bb to teman me for the whole night!! perhaps we'll go study together somewhere in ixora or campus.. we'll study smpai lebam.. we'll study till 6 am.. can bb??
pllzzz!! its ur fault ok! hehehe... sape suruh xbg sue balik!.. ;))

mommy!! daddyy!!
i miss U!!!
:((

counting the days for us to meet!
yay!!
22 days to go!!
cannot waitt!! :))

omg!!
its nearly 8pm..
and saye belom sembahyang magrib lagi.!
isk3... apa mau jd ini...
otay la...
till we'll meet again my dearest blog.! :D

:))sue

nice and beautiful day!!

its 8.45 in the morning.. and my class is at 9am.. still got time to blog ;p
just wanna inform u that.. bb's mom xjd g umrah... i mean.. xjd g umrah this week.. his mom pegi nxt week.. because of sum visa problem.. so she will be in mecca for only a week not 2! kesian diee :(
but anyways...
malas gile nak g class today!!!
everybody dh abes class and me?? NOT!!
got only an hour tutorial then at 10 got sum meeting with huda to finish up the FINAL LAST assignment!
nape u huda buat meeting at this kind of hour??
i'mm soo darn sleepy!!
haiihhh!!!

this week..
xjd balik :(
bb xbg balik :((
n my dad pon xbg balik :((
everybody said to study..

bb xbg balik cz die pon xbalik.. jht! ;p
abah plak..?? abah suruh study smpai lebam ;p
abah suruh dpt 3.5???
scary nyee!!
high expectation toll!!
bole ker??
i'll try!
definitely i'll try...
but will i??
only god knows the answer to it..
just pray and hope for the bestest of me ok??
:))

i'm happy today!!
donno why!
start the day with the smile!!
yayyyybeeedaaa beedduuuu!!!
:))
sewel! ;p

whats my plan for today??
lets see...
go to class...
go to class
go to class??
hahhaha...
n study!
thats all...

ok..i'm running out late to class..write more at night...
have a great day ya'll..
:)) sue

:)

pheww!!
just finished watching heroes! 18 episodes!! i'm addicted to this series!! urghh!! i wanna watch the nxt episodes! but have to wait like AGES!! u should watch it urself then u know why on earth i'm crazyy over this tv series!

well actually.. i'm happy because at last i've finished watching it! then now i got tym to study! finals in 3 weeks! and i've got 5 subjects! urghh!! sgt gile!!

anyhow... about meeting my becoming-mother-in-law 1 day! hehhee... sadly! will not have the chance to see her tomorrow.. :( she did not allowed bb to send her off.. she asked bb to just study and take care of himself... she said that she'll be alright.. her flight is at 7am on friday.. and bb got class.. so that is the reason why die xbg.. kesian bb... i mean.. he really wanted to send his mom in KLIA.. he havent seen his mom since the sem 3 break..

well... just hope the best and good health for his mom.. pray for her safety.. she'll be alright!! i know that :))

now its 4am.. i better sleep.. i'm planning to spend the whole day tomorrow to study! getting scarier day by day... FINALS!! sucks! :(

:)) sue

$$$

ok!!!

i am soOo stressed out!!

i want to go out!!

i want to go shopping!!

i want new shoes!!

i want new clothes!!

i want new everythingsss!!!!

plzzzz~~

i want more and more $$$$

daddy!!

i'm broke this week...

bank-in money ok??

=D

rumbling~

finals just in a few weeks time.. and yet i haven't study a single things!! urghhh!!! i'm a bit stressed now.. assignments!! mock meeting!! urghh!!! study lagi!! urghhh!!!

i think i should make my own timetable for these few weeks before my finals start.. i need! i have to study!! i not.... i think i'm DEAD!! this sem are fcuking hard! i've got 5 papers!! and all are freakking tough! i don't know which paper i can score.. i need to push up my CGPA or at least maintain it... but looks like...HARD!! :((

well2... dont think negative..
hahhahhahaa....
i think i can....kotz..
hahhahaa..
ok la...
gtg
i've got meeting for assignment FAR...
write soon!

:))sue

buncittsss!!

I'm getting FATTIER and FATTIER day by day!!

hahahhahahaha!!! :))

yes i know that... even though I'm getting fattier day by day but the lust towards food still cannot be control..

i LOVE food!

I'm OBSESSED with food!!

i live to eat!!

hahahhaaa... :))

I'm crazy over food OK!

i can eat any kind of food..

i can eat at any time i like!

day, night or even in the middle of night.

but its hard for me to 'telan' mamak ;p

don't ask me why..

;p

but...

i've got this 'buncits' that i hatee!!!

urghhh!!!

why buncitss???

gemokz tmpt lain xbole ker???

haihhh...

u know why i hate to be buncitss??

because i feel uneasy and uncomfortable when i sit..

its like you got something at your tummy but there's nothing u can do..

its like..

u wanna take a knife and chop it off your tummy!

urghhh!!!

nak pkai jeans pon xmuat!
hahahahaa...

ok la..

i nak buat sandwich!

makan lagi ;p

that's me!!

:)) sue

dilemma!

i am still in deep serious dilemma!!!!!!!!!!!!!
should i or shouldn't i go to see ikhwan's mom??????

urghhh!!!
he's still wanna me to go!!!!

i want to..
but i am afraid!!

urghhh!!!
takkoott nyee!!! (~.~)

hrmmm

i hate this kind of feeling.. i still think that i have no self-confidence! i feel that i am small like a kindergarten kid that knowing nothing in life when I'm surrounded by smart and brilliant people.. i still think that i am not smart enough and don't deserve hanging out with them.. i think i am totally different with them.. why am i still having this kinda thought when at the same time i think I'm good enough! (but not perfect though!)
and that is why.. when I'm with those brilliant scholar friends.. i tend to just shut up! because i think the way they think its not the same as mine.. i think that if i utter a word it might probably be the joke to them.. or probably be something 'weird' to them.. are brillian and smart people really that 'nerd' in the sense that they are hard to understand??
i dont know bout u guys.. but this is what i think.. i think that i am totally different from those yg smart in the way we think.. cannot really explain it here.. but seriously i think it takes me like hundreds of hours for me to really understand them.. and houndreds of hours for me to really be myself.. u know like 'gila2'..
if i dont really know them.. i tend to be really2 quiet! i am not friendly!
but once i know them.. then i can be totally gila2 and will do something unexpected! ;p
seriously......
u go and ask someone that is VERY close to me!

hehehe..

btw... i miss my besh friends in jB!! :(

;)) sue

mom in law ;p

what am i gonna doo???

bb told me last friday that his mom will be going to Mecca to perform umrah.. and he asked me to follow him...not to Mecca ok.. dun get me wrong..=D.. he asked me to follow him to KLIA to send his mom.. what?? KLIA?? see his mom??? whoahh!! i dont think i'm ready to see his mom yet... do i?? i dont know.. i have no idea whether i am ready or not..
i have lotsa questions running aroung my head.. what am i gonna wear? baju kurung?? hakhakhak.... i dont have anything sopan enough to wear... what if she (his mom) sees me in tight jeans and t-shirt?? what would she think of me?? urghhh!! belom pape dh kene reject nnti! :( his mom is alim kind of person.! wurghhh!! scary!!
anybody has any brilliant idea??
dont follow him??? bad idea!! he will scold me if i dont go.. he will tarik2 my ear and cubit2 my pipi...
i asked liyana my sis.. asked her for her opinion...she said.. just go la! jumpe ur bakal mentua! ;p yeah2! mybe i should.. dh time kot.. his mom already know tiny bit about me kotz. so whats the problem right??
well suraya! face it ok! u should be brave enough for this kinda things.. 1 day u have to face it too.. hahhaa.. marry?? not yet la... ;p

ok la..
i think i can just go and see his mom.. mybe! MAYBE!! she will like me.. maybe la.. just pray for the best aite?..
lg pon.. kesian kt bb.. pegi KLIA sorang2 from melaka..he doesnt know how u know... so am i la!.. so anything happen.. we both we'll get lost! hahahaa...

ok la..
till then..
i'll update about my becoming-mother-in-law after i see her ok.. ;p
pray pray pray for the best!
hope she like me!! =DD

;)) sue

dream~

yesterday... i spent my night time with fira and kak bai.. we watched devil wears prada in my room =D i like doing this kinda things.. u know like spending time with ur housemates and having great time! rather than having a cold relationship with them.. hate it when housemates hating each other and put on 'stupid' faces when facing each others.. this is not healthier!! =D
well.. after the movie.. we chatted for a while.. we talked about how lucky to become stewardess.. what advantages we'll get =D free makeup!! not just simple and cheap make up ok! you'll get like DIOR! CHANEL! and those expensive ones!! owhh!!! i'm so in love with it now!! can i change my dream??? hehehhe... sadly.. i can't.. i'm short =(( then...we talked about pilot! hehehe... i wanna bb jd pilot bole?? =D bb tukar balik course! take pilot course plzzz!!! hehehe =D
FYI.. bb had try nk jd pilot.. but sadly again he wears spect =( haiihh!! mcm2 la... xpe la... i told bb about it just now.. he said.. if ALLAH nk jd kn kite kaya.. we will jd kaya one day..dont worry k.. owhh!! sayang die!! muahx!!

nothing~

its been awhile since i blog.. i dun really have the mood to blog actually.. i am sick! i got sore throat! headache! but my appetite still the same! i think I'm more 'selera' to eat!! =D
yeah!! i love food OK! i eat when ever i like without giving a second thought! i dun care if I'm chubby! because i am chubby! so what!! as long as i am happy! i don't give a damn what people said anymore! i don't wanna get hurt just because i am chubby! chubby is cute! i am cute! ahakzz!! perasan plak! ;p

but anyways.. finals are in 4 weeks time! already got 2 result of my midterm.. finance and macroeconomics.. both the papers i did quite well.. but I'm scared for the finals! like duh!! who don't??

enough bout finals! buhsan la... every entry I'd post bout it.. haiihh!!

hate security!!

From my headline title i think u could guess what i'm about to write!! yeah!! me n bb totally hate MMU's securities! especailly the old-budget bagush malay security!! urghhh!!! nak tumbuk2 aje muka die tau x.!
the story goes like this.. me n bb was studying in exam hall today.. it was 2.59am and i told Bb that i wanted to go to the toilet.. so since Bb the only person with me.. i asked him to accompanied me! like duhh!! no way for me to go alone!! so as i finished doing my 'things' i joined bb reading bulletin board nearby.. couple of minutes later.. came 2 securities!! a guy and a girl!!! something bad happened! i mean.... bb and the male security gadoh!! yeah!! the security started 1st.. he accused us doing bad things in the dark!! HELLO!!! xgelap ok!! ada lampu!! buta ker?? bongok nye security! bb was damn mad!! so die lawan balik the security!! the security dgn belagak nye amik walkie-talkie die.. and mintak tlg from his friends! lalallalala~~ tau takot! hahahaa...in the end... xd sape kot nk tlg die.!! wakakkaa... berlagak lg! takot kene buang keje la tue...
FYI my readers... b4 that.. me n bb saw them both the securities man n woman in the dark!! yesh!! they were the one doing bad things in the dark! i'm not saying bad things bout them.. but this is the truth!
can u imagined!!
if u are the supervisor of the securities and it was u who will making work timetable.. would u match a man and a woman working together at nite?? at 3 am in the morning??? in the dark??? would u????? NO rite??
so??
think about it!!

and not juzt that... mase the men had a fight! i saw the gurl was soOoo quiet! berdiri je without saying a word!! and at the gurl's hand i saw a torchlite! but x on... soo?? if u were working at nite and just came from a dark place.. why wouldnt u switch on the torchlite?? unless u were doing things that u wouldnt want anyone to see... rite?????
then after that... from the exam hall... we saw.. the gurl leaving the CITS ( owh yeah.. the things happened at cits) without the guy...
so for my conclusion.. i think the gurl was scared!! so... she went seperate direction!

gile *&^%$ la security laki tue.. berlagak nak mmpos! keje as security jer! plain security!! bkn head ker chief ker..!! go to hell la stupid security!!

so...
for all the securities out there! jgn la berlagak with the uniform that u wear.. xd makne nye laaa!! jz a uniform! it doesnt show any pangkat or darjat or whatever power la!!
sedar2 la...

later~

random things

i got headache! i'm confused! i'm blur!
this is all because of critique essay!!! warghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! y do we have to do critique essay??
dammit!!
everyday single days! there always sumthing that makes me stress! tension! not in the mood!
had this kinda life!!
urghhh!!!

yesterday..
i went to the sinar maulidurrasul in main hall..at first i wore my ELLE 3/4 black shirt.. than i changed it cause i thought it was sexy! but then i changed to my MNG long sleeve that cover my butt! smpai2 je in front of main hall.. i saw most of the ppl wears baju kurung!! urghhh!! malu sungguh! but Ubi who is one of the crew told bb that u can wear anything even baju biasa .. so we both wore baju biasa la.! siott nye ubi!! haishh!!! so.. i went back home again to changed!! yesh!! again!!! this tym i wore baju kurung! but ddk dlm xsmpai sejam then i balik! haiihh!! sungguh memenat kn!!
sgt buhsan ok that concert! me n bb have to sit separately! demmit la that guy yg asked us to sit seperately! konon ckp ddk kene asing! but then i saw lotsa guys sit nxt to girls.. apa cite tue??? xbole tgk org senang! bkn nye org ddk sebelah laki nk wat maksiat! iskkk!!!
1 thing that i dun really like was that.. when each performance about to perform ada ker dieorg tepuk tgn! i mean i sure dun look nice though.. yer la.. this is majlis keagamaan.. so i dun think its appropriate... in my old school.. in this kinda majlis we we shout 'ALLAHU AKHBAR' 3 times.. i think that is far more than enough! i think that superb good!!..

ok la..
i dun wanna say more bout that majlis since i went there not more than an hour.. i have no rites i might say..hehhee..

now i wanna watch some movies.. then continue my study in MA.. then later if got time i'll continue with my essay!
till then my dear blog..
i'll see you when i blog..

;) sue