hrmmm

i hate this kind of feeling.. i still think that i have no self-confidence! i feel that i am small like a kindergarten kid that knowing nothing in life when I'm surrounded by smart and brilliant people.. i still think that i am not smart enough and don't deserve hanging out with them.. i think i am totally different with them.. why am i still having this kinda thought when at the same time i think I'm good enough! (but not perfect though!)
and that is why.. when I'm with those brilliant scholar friends.. i tend to just shut up! because i think the way they think its not the same as mine.. i think that if i utter a word it might probably be the joke to them.. or probably be something 'weird' to them.. are brillian and smart people really that 'nerd' in the sense that they are hard to understand??
i dont know bout u guys.. but this is what i think.. i think that i am totally different from those yg smart in the way we think.. cannot really explain it here.. but seriously i think it takes me like hundreds of hours for me to really understand them.. and houndreds of hours for me to really be myself.. u know like 'gila2'..
if i dont really know them.. i tend to be really2 quiet! i am not friendly!
but once i know them.. then i can be totally gila2 and will do something unexpected! ;p
seriously......
u go and ask someone that is VERY close to me!

hehehe..

btw... i miss my besh friends in jB!! :(

;)) sue